So here’s the deal. I’ve been slacking on everything, ever since moving into our new house. I gave myself permission to slack at first because, you know, moving house and getting your kid settled into a new school takes up a lot of physical and emotional attention. But it’s been two years now and slacking has become the new norm.
For a few years I had this great routine. I would get up at 4am on workdays. I would sit with my coffee in the silence of the early morning hours, reading and then scribbling a few things down in my journal. Then I would do a little bit of yoga, then a little bit of strength training, take a shower, get ready for work. I was all done before 6:30, which was when I’d have to wake Liam up for school. Starting my morning this way gave my whole day a sense of direction. I was so much more productive at work, I stayed focused and on task.
After work, before heading home to the world of parenting, laundry and cooking dinner, I would go for a run. Claiming those few hours in the morning and the hour after work, all to myself, without interruption, was all I needed to feel ready to give others what they needed from me.
I want to get back to that routine. But I’m struggling to get out of bed on time as it is these days. I’m stuck in that cycle that so many stressed adults fall into. You sleep badly because you’re stressed, which means you’re exhausted throughout the day. Being exhausted means everything takes that much longer to get done. To keep up and function you start surviving on caffine, junk food and take-out because you have no time to plan decent meals. Meanwhile the spinach and avocados you bought last weekend and swore you would eat are now turning brown and soggy. This all culminates in a level of crankyness that gets expressed in any number of unhealthy ways (yelling at the cats, yelling at the dog, yelling at your 11 year old, yelling at the corner of the countertop you just ran into and then spending the rest of the night consuming a pint of Ben & Jerry’s. No joke. This is how I’ve been functioning).
I need to take action. What better way to do that then to make a list of goals and broadcasting them to the world on a blog that virtually nobody reads.
I’m going to start with 4. These are more like habits I want to adopt than they are goals. If I can adopt good habits then the more specific goals can come later.
1) Sleep better. I have this feeling that if I get to bed early enough, get a solid night of sleep then everything else will be a lot easier to address. In bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10pm.
2) Wake-up at 5:30am and spend time reading/writing. Then, maybe in time, I can work my way back to the 4am wake-up.
3) Blog once a week. Journaling is great but I think blogging forces you to reflect on your live with more intention.
4) Tackle one house project per week. This is mainly a necessity at this point, there are a lot of areas in my house that our completely disorganized. When my house is disorganized, I feel almost clausterphobic. It stresses me out.
I’ll track my progress using OneNote, because I can use check-boxes. There is something very satisfying about clicking inside a box and having this wonderful red check appear.